Wednesday, January 14, 2009

Hope Against Hope

I'm skipping Saturday and Sunday as they were spent fretting about my one and only's condition. She was sedated and on the ventilator laying on the active cooling bed as they still wrestled with her temperature...

Monday offered a little hope as they got her temps under control (kinda) and were able to start regulating them with medicine. They started taking her off the sedation to see how she would do, but kept her under for the MRI on Monday after noon. And Monday passed with pretty much the same wresting angst that Saturday and Sunday did.

Tuesday. They day that I forever will hate. The day that knocked me right back to Friday. The MRI results confirmed brain damage. Me and her mom were stunned, floored... destroyed. Oh dear lord... Not my baby, not no. We're going to grow old together. Not her....

So I spent Tuesday night with her, holder hand and kissing her forehead telling her that we love her and need her and want her back. How our lives cant go on with out her. All night. My love.

Early Wednesday morning (today) she seemed to be responding to stimulus and she even tried to open her eyes when we were changing her sheets. The doctor came in about 9am and asked the nurse for an up date. She had been off sedation since 3pm the day before. He seemed happy that she wasnt worse. He tickled her feet and her leg jumped a little, and then he went and poked at her chest. Her ams flailed and her head came up and she open her eyes!!!! OH GLORY!!!11!!!!

I ran to her side to look in her eyes. They were rolled back in her head but were coming down. She blinked a few times as I looked into her eyes and told her how much I love her and how much we all miss her and how we cant wait to get her home... Then she went back to sleep.

I felt good enuf (after calling everyone) to go to my parents house to grab some sleep. I turned day shift over to her mom, her cousin and my dad.

When I got back to the hospital at 4, the neurologist, CDC, and transmittable disease doctors had just left. CDC was pinging the TD doctor about what it is. He/They still dont know what strain they are dealing with. The neurologist had done some checking and seemed totally convinced that there was no permanent brain damage, and that her body was simply shut down to fight the infection. He was happy with her pain/reflex responses and her pupil dilation and reactions. They took 7 more vials of blood to run yet more test.

So me and her mom left on that high note to get some rest. I needed to get an update out to all of you guys too.

I want to thank all of you for the prayers and good vibes. All my buddies on the AAO Beta team, the great guys at SimHq, and all of Buffys great friends at deviantart. I think I pm'd 3 peps and made one post and theres 10+ pages worth the well wishes and prayers.

She need them and they are working. Keep it up so we can bring her back.

15 comments:

tatergun said...

I am relieved for you SJ!! Your wife and your family are in my daily thoughts. Keep up positive thoughts..not only for Buffy but for your kids and YOU!!!

'hugs'
Tater_gun/Teresa Jensen

Mecha said...

She's still in our prayers for a swift and total recovery! We all love her (and you guys in turn) so she has all of our support :)

musicaldruid said...

such encouraging news. Thank you for the update. I do hope and pray that she continues to progress and will come home as the Buffy we all know and love.

Ted Thompson said...

I landed here from DA...

Thank god for this great news, and I look forward to more.

As I read this I was horrified, because it was like reading my own diary from 4 years ago (with weeks as a matter of fact)

ALL of that first entry (no insurance, tough it out, looked like flu) - On day two a massive brain hemorrhage brought the matter to an end...

It was chilling to read another mans story unfolding the same way. I am so happy it didn't!

I have NO idea who you are really, AmericaNinjaX's DA journal led me here, but I lend the weight of my own well wishes to the cause!!

Darcsyde said...

I am overjoied to hear this news!
I will keep the prayers and all that good stuff going for her.
My best to you, her and the whole family.

Kristopher and Crew said...

This is great news! It's still incredibly scary, and there's a long way to go, but our wishes stay with you for the haul!

Sean Willett said...

Glad to Hear some great news, shes still in my prayers along with everyone from simhq. You got my number if you need anything let me know.

Nate said...

The previous news weighed on me like a dark cloud hanging over my head. I can't begin to imagine how you must've felt. The love that you have for her expressed through your words were very moving. I've never been married or in a relationship to speak of & therefore may not be able to relate, but I can surely respect & appreciate it. That said, I'm truly happy for you & your family concerning the good news. My continued prayers, best wishes, & support on a safe & speedy recovery & a blessed reunion.
M.E. (Nate-Vega at DA)

Sayuri said...

I AM SO RELIEVED TO READ THAT WONDERFUL NEWS !!!!
I am a fan of your wife's art (through deviantart.com) and there we all pray in order to see her better and better !
Buffy : thank you for having struggle for your life !!
Samira alias Recreation10 on deviantart.

Bad Attitude Ink said...

Great news. STill praying tho. :D

Inge aka Storm said...

Hi Buffy
I am so sorry to hear about you being sick like this. I hope you will feel better soon. My heart and thoughts go out to you and your family
Huggles Inge aka Storm

Alexandria Neonakis said...

found you from DA
just wishing you the best in a swift recovery for your wife.

Barry said...

Hang in there Rob. I will continue to keep your wife in my prayers.

This too shall pass.

musicaldruid said...

Happy Birthday sweets! Get well soon!!!! Love you Buffy.

Anonymous said...

Best wishes for you, Buffy and your families.